Doubt

She sat by a window, just thinking. She'd always been a secure person emotionally, never wondering or caring about what people thought of her, because it never mattered. She'd loved being alone, just going off on flights of imagination into own personal world.

Until he came into her life, and everything changed forever.

Now, she dreaded being alone, because silence brought unwelcome thoughts, haunting memories, and oceans of self doubt. She desperately wanted to be perfect in every possible way, in his eyes. Because, he was the only one who mattered. Why, oh why, should he matter?

Was this love, after all? This complete change in one's life, the desire to be enough, in every way, for him. The constant self doubt, the dread and hope at the same time.

She had always heard, that love was supposed to be delightful, happy and glowing. The stories had never mentioned the agonies of the emotion, the pain, fears and doubts. Was it really worth the sacrifice of inner peace?

The silence, the endless nights had become too loud for her to bear.

She prayed for an end, but, sadly, no one heeded it.